Who else is feeling a bit lost & unsure right now?

Over the last week or so I am DEFINITELY feeling it!

For those of you who are unaware--my family and I made a HUGE transition in late December. I closed up my long-awaited dream of a retail photography studio & packed up a house & family (within 4 weeks) and moved 9 hours north to Fort Worth. There we joined my husband who had been working in the DFW area for about 18 months. To say the move was needed is an understatement! We were losing touch with each other and as a family. In all honesty, I just needed to be able to say "Ask your dad" more than once or twice a month!!

So anyways- we made the move.... Family First!

Kids were adjusting... loving their new schools... making new friends... we were eating meals as a family again... I was helping everyone else get settled... and I was dreaming & working on my new business plan.

....And then this happens & we are stuck sheltering in place & homeschooling, which let me tell you is NOT my calling in life! (and yes...my children agree with that statement, lol)

We can all look like we are handling this well on social media posts and in emails, but I'll be brutally honest here, I think alot of us and doing a great job trying to make it look like we are! I am not doing a real good job of it on a daily basis.

I feel as if my Super Mom cape has become tattered and torn!

Seriously this is where I am at on a normal day-to-day basis right now---

I'm scared of not rebuilding my business and confused on even how to start! I'm terrified I'm screwing up my kids' education or frying their brains with too much screen time. Worried about not investing enough time, money or effort into my business during this time of uncertainty. Scared I have lost energy and momentum for doing the things I love outside of being a mom. Terrified that my loved ones will fall ill or worse. Any of this sound familiar to the voice inside your head?

Then there are days where I feel at peace. I'm where I'm supposed to be and doing exactly what I should be right now. Where I'm just hidden away from the world outside my front door, only concerned with keeping my space, family and life in balance and calm. I do feel more connected with my family and feel as if some bonds are growing more solid right now. I'm taking the time to re-connect to others and myself and taking the time to handwrite cards again.

I thank God for allowing me to just be right now & praying for guidance in the next steps.

I feel grateful for where we are in our life right now and that I am able to focus on what matters most to me without constant worry of finances and making ends meet. I am grateful that you are reading this right now & maybe something in this resonates with you.

I am grateful for my health and the health of my family & friends.

I am grateful that I can take the time to Embrace the Pause in life and try new things, take on a new hobby to pass my time.

To find peace and calm in just being. I am grateful that I can take this time to create and focus on the future and what it might hold for my family and my business.

But for today- I just want you all to know that we are in this together. Be assured that you are not alone in your feelings and that it is totally ok to show some weakness & vulnerability now and again. 

So for now...take a moment and be embraced in my social-distanced hug.